Keepin’ the Faith

Hi Everyone: Sorry about the delay in writing! Sometimes and only sometimes it is difficult to post a blog. This time around after my 4th treatment I did just OK. After my 3 days in Tucson I came home and stayed in bed for 4 days. I just didn’t have the energy and the cisplatin kept me feeling nauseated until I returned to treatment the following week.

As Michelle noted in the previous blog, I was told by Dr. Chambers that I need to finish the 6 IP treatments and then we will determine what my next options are, with one option being I could possibly be done! Wow, this would be great, but Dr. Chambers did caution me about getting too excited about this option and that it could be just one of a few options.

So I travel back to Tucson the 13th of February for round 5. But I do have the next two weeks to build energy and strength.

One of the other reasons posting a blog has been difficult is due to the emotional funk I have been feeling. My life has changed so dramatically! I always say “I just want to do something normal.” But what is normal anymore? I am trying to adjust or anticipate to what is next and will be a new normal for me.

I miss so many things, especially being able to do things with Bill. He just finished a trial last week and I was only able to hear about the events of the day when he got home. I have always enjoyed helping him with his trials and being involved at any level. I do miss my job and being busy. Maybe that’s it, I just miss my energy level, being productive and having a lot to do in my day.

I guess I just miss my old life and wonder what is in store for me as I continue through chemotherapy and recovery. I welcome the adventure I am currently engaged in and am learning a lot.

I do thank all of you again and again for your encouragement, I really could not do this without you.

Love to all,
Colleen